I’m almost (but not quite) speechless.
It was that good.
All about patterns and how to unravel them and work on them and change them. If you feel like it.
I actually have this little pattern where I sign up for a class or conference or retreat, and my expectations wind up ridiculously high about what kind of impact it will have on my life. Of course, that usually leads to disappointment when I go back home and things have changed a little but not much.
I told myself that, if nothing else, I’ll have the opportunity to work on that pattern, if things wound up being not all I had hoped.
As it turns out, though, working on that pattern will have to wait for some other opportunity. Because the retreat was far from disappointing.
I wrote here about how I was struggling with some fears about launching my business, and it was manifesting itself as an inability to reach “good enough” with my website design.
And how I was going to focus on giving Hedgehog Girl what she needed to feel safe.
A lot of shifting happened around that little issue.
Three really big things I got out of the retreat:
1. Again isn’t really again.
I got really frustrated with myself during the first part of the retreat, as I became more aware that I was feeling scared again. Scared to launch my website, scared to own (publicly) that I’m a coach.
Why can’t I just get past that already?
I mean, didn’t Hedgehog Girl and I come to an understanding?
And I asked Havi whether the fact that the fear came up again meant that I was missing something. Or doing something wrong or failing to address the true need beneath the fear.
And her answer was that even though it feels the same, it’s not really the same. There’s always something about it that’s different.
When I thought about it, it’s true. For example, when I start feeling scared, I’m able to remember to be compassionate with myself much more quickly now than I was even a few months ago.
2. Give yourself (and receive from yourself) credit for all of it.
It is so easy to forget how much progress has been made, but when I look back over the last three months, six months, year, a lot has changed.
I’m not so good with the self-credit dispensing.
3. A deep awareness of the awesome support network I have.
To me, it felt like I was going on and on about the same crap I’ve struggled with for years around being a coach.
But everyone was so encouraging, and reminded me that they are here to help and support me as I launch this new venture.
What a gift to have a group of friends who don’t ask you, “Are you still whining about all that?”
Joining the Kitchen Table this year has seriously been a huge part of all the progress I’ve made, and I wouldn’t be doing this now without the support of every one of those awesome Tablers.
So here it is.
Am I still scared? Hell yeah.
But I’m more scared of how I’ll feel if I don’t get this party started.
Let’s celebrate together!
As a way to party it up and celebrate this ginormous step I’m taking, I want to offer a special price on coaching packages.
Between now and September 18, for the first six people who sign up, three-session packages will be available for $240 – that’s 20% off the normal package price.
Check out my Is This for You? page to see if you are one of my Right People, or check out my About page to learn more about me. If it feels right, head on over to the Contact page to schedule a short phone chat, and then we’ll schedule the first session!
Just want to ask a question? Feel free to contact me for that, too! Or post in the comments…
This is a big, scary move for me, so please no advice giving or critiquing.
Cheers and happy dances gratefully accepted.