Time for another update on what’s been happening since I quit my job. Woo hoo!
Body continuing to fall to pieces
I had intended to post an update at day 30, but I completely missed it.
Remember how last time I said I was sick? Well I stayed sick for Two. Full. Weeks. And then some.
Even now I’ve got this lingering cough. And less-than-normal amounts of energy.
I taught my class!
Sunday before last I got to teach a class for Havi’s Kitchen Table.
It was my first class as a coach, and although I’ve taught in the past (scuba diving and some programming stuff) it’s been a while.
Everyone asked lots of genius questions that led to great discussions. And they were wonderfully patient while I had to keep putting myself on mute to hack up a lung.
Definitely looking forward to doing more of that! The teaching, I mean. Not the hacking.
Turning away work
For the first time since launching my business, I decided to say no to a project.
I wrote about it here, but the short version is that it was hard and brought up my perfectionist and decision-making stuff.
On the plus side, I’m starting to see that I really can trust my judgment on whether something is right for me or not. Even if I can’t explain why it’s right or not.
One of the reasons it was hard to turn that opportunity down is because we need the money.
If you want to see what your patterns are around money, just try making a significant change to your financial situation. They’ll start popping up like, uhhh, pop-tarts. Or something.
Then on top of that we got word that our mortgage payment is going up in 2010. (I don’t want to talk about it.)
So is our HOA bill. And our homeowner’s insurance. And our car insurance. And the HOA bill at our rental property.
I don’t regret quitting my job the vast majority of the time. But there are moments when I ask myself what the hell I was thinking. (We’re at that stage in our relationship, right? Where we can be, you know, real?)
So I’ve been doing a lot of grounding and centering and letting my fear flow. Thank the gods for that. It really helps keep the freak-outs at bay.
Goodbye, writer’s block!
For the most part, it’s gone. Yay!
This coming week-ish
More resting to try to get my health back. I need to start exercising again, but I can’t seem to get motivated. That’s probably another post.
Traveling – Tomorrow I’m heading to Sacramento to hang out with Havi and Selma and a bunch of other wicked cool peeps. I really should start packing (yes, it takes me forever), but instead I’m blogging.
Branching out – I’ll be appearing on other blogs soon as I work on some guest posts and an interview! Scary and exciting at the same time.
Has the reality of this change set in, yet?
On a scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being “fully aware of this new reality,” I’d have to give the last couple weeks a 3.5.
It seems a hair more real than last time, but I’m not sure I can give a reason why.
And yet it still doesn’t feel real. Partly because I still don’t really have new routines yet. Hard to establish routines when my body is rebelling.
But maybe it doesn’t feel real because I’m still expecting it to feel like a job. And it definitely doesn’t feel like that.
Since not having it feel like a job is pretty much the whole point of this adventure, I’m just going to be glad about that.